Sunday, June 28, 2009
Finally An Emotional Breakthrough-Day 43
What a healing day it has been for me! The floodgates of emotions and releasing were opened today. I was so overdue for this. I listened to my body's wisdom when it asked for me to go on a 5 mile run. I did. I ran through one of the most beautiful neighborhoods here in Hawaii on the east side of the island called Portlock, where multi-million dollar homes are built overlooking the coast. I had a deja-vu moment while running up one of the hills. I had a shiver down my spine and for a moment I believed I have been there in my dreams. I passed by the house that I was living in...in my dream. I dreamt of that place twice. Wow! At first I was resistant to running in this new territory. I wanted to run through what was already familiar to me (doesn't it sound familiar?) It was one of the most hardest and most pushed runs I had put myself through and it was so worth it! I could my body responding, my energy blocks being cleared, I now feel grounded. I think my body detoxed a little afterward because after the run I wasn't feeling too well. After a nice cool down and a hot shower. Talked with a good friend and she helped me in releasing the hurt, anguish and pain that I have been carrying around regarding the relationship I have with my birth mother. She asked many questions until I was ready to release. And I did. I surrendered. I feel lighter, safer, loved and free. I know I can still go there to that place and do more forgiving and healing. We have an incredible relationship and I am grateful for that. Now with swollen eyes worth having I am will have a good nights rest. Thank you for reading and allowing me to share.