Back on Track

I've kept you guys in the dark about my life for an entire month! I have forgiven myself for this and there has just been so much exciting and not so exciting things happening in my life. I have completed my ninety day plan and in the last two months as far as my Herbalife business goes I have brought in five new supervisors. My personal volume for June was over nine thousand and for the month of July just over six thousand. Not quite where I want it to be but pretty darn incredible considering I hardly worked. Another reason why I was resistant to blogging. So that is where I'm at in my business. As for my personal growth, it has been a long stretch out from my structures of knowing. Everyday I decide to draw a line in the sand. I have been surrendering most of life to the unknown and have put full faith into my mentors to tell me what to do and where to go on my path. The knowledge that I have has brought me to where I am and if I choose to be, do and have more I've got to get used to another plan and another way of doing things. This is not comfortable however I am willing. I have been getting used to acknowledging myself for the preparations I have made and congratulating myself more for each step I take forward putting one foot in front of the other. I have been surrendering to my team of mentors for help every step of the way. I take one step and I check in to make sure I am not falling down on the wayside. I am over having bruised knees from falling, however, the fall is what has made me stronger and wiser. Everyday I set an intention for the day. Everyday I ask and look for a miracle. When the miracle and sychronicity appears I focus on it, I dwell on it, I giggle about it and soon after another one appears and this cycle continues until I put my head down on the pillow. Living life with ease is much more fun. Deciding everyday that the day is easy and effortless produces such an effervescent, light and free energy that it matches my true being and my true nature. Another chapter on that. Living true to my nature.
Let's turn the page and let the games begin.

Finally An Emotional Breakthrough-Day 43

What a healing day it has been for me! The floodgates of emotions and releasing were opened today. I was so overdue for this. I listened to my body's wisdom when it asked for me to go on a 5 mile run. I did.  I ran through one of the most beautiful neighborhoods here in Hawaii on the east side of the island called Portlock, where multi-million dollar homes are built overlooking the coast. I had a deja-vu moment while running up one of the hills. I had a shiver down my spine and for a moment I believed I have been there in my dreams. I passed by the house that I was living in...in my dream. I dreamt of that place twice. Wow! At first I was resistant to running in this new territory. I wanted to run through what was already familiar to me (doesn't it sound familiar?) It was one of the most hardest and most pushed runs I had put myself through and it was so worth it! I could my body responding, my energy blocks being cleared, I now feel grounded. I think my body detoxed a little afterward because after the run I wasn't feeling too well. After a nice cool down and a hot shower. Talked with a good friend and she helped me in releasing the hurt, anguish and pain that I have been carrying around regarding the relationship I have with my birth mother. She asked many questions until I was ready to release. And I did. I surrendered. I feel lighter, safer, loved and free. I know I can still go there to that place and do more forgiving and healing. We have an incredible relationship and I am grateful for that. Now with swollen eyes worth having I am will have a good nights rest. Thank you for reading and allowing me to share.

Reflecting on Many Inner Messages-Day 49

As the world turns. Many inner messages have been revealing themselves to me through intuition, reading, guidance,and physical mentors. The transition of Michael Jackson had stirred many emotions within myself. Quite shocking and sad his passing, however, the view I take from it is a blessing. His soul choose to leave the earth as it has fulfilled it's mission in life. Michael not only left a strong message of love and healing but he also left a legacy that will touch millions who are not even born yet. This is quite a revelation. Michaels passing has also brought me to a place of deep reflection in my own life. The emotions that I am feeling in this moment are heavy. I haven't quite felt the emotion of grieving before. I did really good all of my life trying to stuff emotions down, numb the pain and not have to deal with it. As I have matured spiritually and personally I have learned to express them, feel them, and feel safe in them. This is not an easy process. I have been releasing a lot of guilt and bringing unconscious behaviors into the light of my consciousness. I have been expanding and venturing into unknown territory. I have surrendered to knowing. I am often in awe of my journey and just how much I have been through to grow. When I reflect on my life in such a short five years of being in Herbalife, I have grown, been stretched, reached out and expanded. Today is an inspiring day. Although I am mesmerized with my findings, I am thrilled and eager to see where I will be headed next. Many wonderful and great things are transpiring here in Herbalife Hawaii, and we all are stepping up and stepping out. The way the Universe is conspiring in our favor as always, it's interesting watching my life unfold.

Spiritual Growth-Day 42

I believe having an expanded view of my lifes events helps me to understand the personal growth and story that goes with it. It's been quite challenging in the last week or so for myself as I am stepping into the unknown. I believe the more I keep the visions I have for myself and for others helps me to keep my thoughts focused in the higher energies. I recently learned that the experience of all the emotions in our lives are healthy. Without labeling them as good or bad but rather just feeling them, knowing how these emotions and energies feel in the body. I went back to using a tool called The Process that Robert Scheinfeld shares in his book "Busting Loose." I believe that life is an illusion. All things are illusions. It's all just smoke and mirrors. The process is quite wonderful. This is the tool that I will stick to and work with. This is a new chapter in my life and day by day I am writing the words.

Where Have I Been? Day-38

Really, where have I been? Where do I begin...I realized I have not checked in to my blog now for 4 days, forgive me. The observer in me has been grounded in awareness, but the ego part of me has been all over the place! I have had to take a really hard look at my lifestyle to then decide to have the willingness to change. Conquering negative thinking may require some major changes not just mental ones, but emotional and physical ones as well-what is generally known as your lifestyle. We may have to change "habits." The Koran states "God changes not what is in a people, until they change what is in themselves.
Change may not be comfortable and change may not be easy. It takes courage to take an honest look at one's life, discover what's no longer working, and then change it.
I've made a quick decision in a day and it took me 4 days to live out the decision! It took me 4 days to get into taking action on the decision. The decision to eliminate cigarette smoke from my life is a huge milestone for me and a worthy one. This was the last thing for me towards the hero's journey of integrity. I'm happy to say that it has been 4 days and I'm done. It's interesting because giving up that habit has allowed me to discover other patterns in my life. Patterns of thinking, looking back into the past etc. This has been a tremendous journey, and I appreciate every step of the way. By letting go of this "old part" of me, this one that has a whole lot of history attached to it, feels so good, liberating and freeing. This is my time. Keeping my visualization of the end result of letting this part of me go is what is keeping me going. I am back on track in this new week with my 90 day plan. Keeping on with momentum is important, we do not want to "fizzle" out. I am now happy and joyful and with each new day brings to me more clarity to the highest good. Thank you so much for reading. I appreciate you too.

Ego Management-Debbie Ford

As a phase 2 player of the game of life, I have created the answer to this ego management dilemma. Here is what Debbie Ford writes:
It is your soul's journey to bring into balance all of what you are -- the coexistence of opposites, the divine integration of the sum of all the parts. It is the soul's journey to enroll the ego in the quest for the ultimate victory -- the evolution of your own individual consciousness. But the journey must begin by choosing between two forces: one has the power to lead you to new heights; the other can keep you pinned down to a past that is filled with limitation and dread. Don't be fooled. You're living either an ego-driven life or one that is soul centered.

The soul discerns with a laserlike sharpness. The ego judges and rejects with disdain and aggressiveness. The soul takes responsibility.The ego blames and transfers responsibility. The soul moves through life with grace. The ego moves through life with sloppiness, chaos, and drama. The soul feels good about who it is and what it wants and needs to sustain itself, to grow and evolve. The ego never has enough; it can never leave well enough alone or see beyond the current circumstances. It is entitled, confused and feels stuck.

The ego is tirelessly swimming against the current, while the soul sits back and floats in the direction that life is moving in. You're either being guided by your soul or driven by your ego. At any time, you have access to either of these lifestyles, and to all the experiences and emotions they bring with them.


So after reading these short paragraphs, I realized that all there was for me to do in the midst of the turmoil was to choose the journey of my sweet soul -- to tune in, to listen even more deeply and to stay committed to a higher vibration -- the vibration of love, peace and success...my soul's success.

So of course I'll ask you like I asked myself, "What can you do this week to make this human experience more loving, more honest and more soulful?" I hope you remember that, in the midst of an ego attack, you too can choose a higher vibration. It is the only true path to your soul's success.

This Too Shall Pass-Day 34

When I can remind myself that this too shall pass, I believe that it would be much easier for me to realize that I am experiencing a moment of growth. The moment to see things and my life from a much higher perspective. A couple of days ago, I fell victim to the ego, going unconscious and not being able to see myself as who I really am. I saw myself as who I am not. It's awesome to have mentors who can help and pull you out from where you are, but sometimes as a leader, I must be willing to implement what I already know. I'm grateful to have people like Kellie in my life because she's been here where I am before. I can reach out and ask for help when I'm not feeling right. I realize I am shifting when my physical body shows signs of manifestations of the mind. About a week ago I broke out in what looks like a rash covering my arms and legs. I thought at first it was because of the flea infestation we had in our yard and in our home, but since it's been a week since we had taken care of the problem, I realized I had to take responsibility for what was happening to my body. I looked up the probable cause in Louise Hay's book You Can Heal Your Life under "itchy" and "rash" and the determining cause in the mind reads this: Desires that go against the grain, unsatisfied, remorse, itching to get out or get away, irritation over delays, babyish way to get attention, protects our individuality, anxiety, fear, being threatened. When I take at look at this and willing to tell the truth about it, it's amazing how the problematic cause goes away with simple affirmations of affirming the truth. To affirm that I am safe to be me, I am at peace with where I am, I accept my good knowing that all my needs and desires will be fulfilled. I'm still itchy *laughing* but I am grateful for the body to show me where I must shift my thinking. It's just old patterns surfacing as I am transitioning to next level, and the ego is being a little irritated because she loves to keep me in the comfort zone and I'm done being here. I'm still working my ninety plan, however, where I am at in the game, everyday must be lived consciously. I must be conscious at all times. The first gauge is how am I feeling everyday.
I understand now when Jim Rohn says "We must work harder on ourselves than we do at our businesses." This is where the work of a true leader begins. I surrender to my purpose. I surrender it all. This is much easier. The willingness to just let go!